CRUSH

I guess it is a good thing to have a crush going on, in life at any given moment. This is what I read in one of the dailynews recently. Looking back, I could say I had my fair share of crushes from my childhood and most of them are one way crushes starting from Hemamalini( yes she is almost 30 years elder to me ) when I had that thought in my mind. If I recall it correctly, the next one was my music teacher in my 4rth standard (do people have cruses at ages like that or it’s just my evil perverted mind?) I don’t know, I still have a soft corner for the fairer side who are really good singers. It went on with couple of girls in my college life and that was it. Somehow the work life kept me so busy that I never found any face / person interesting enough to catch my attention (may be a pretty smile somewhere). I am not sure if it was more of a realization that crushes doesn’t help much unless you work on it. (In my case even you work on it!)

So it leads to the question what happens if I try to work on a crush to take it to next level? Most of the time I get crushes to the best person around and I end up joining a marathon run rather a short sprint with limited people where I have at least a chance to finish and ends up my heart being crushed! So the million dollar question is why I am talking about crush at this point of time. Yes you are right! I got that long forgotten feeling of having a crush over some one lately. A pretty face which I bumped into in my current workplace! I am not sure if having a crush in mind for someone is ok and if it is good to write about it here! I hope I will be able to keep this in my blog long enough J and no one comes walking to my desk to break my legs / hands

More about the crush lady, I have to come up with some name which cannot be traced back to this girl. So I will go with Crush Lady- CL. I have never tried to work on a crush to see if it would reach somewhere. This time, I sat back and thought, When I had such a thing going when I was in 4rth standard, my thought process went like I am just 4, let me grow up. The same thing came back on my adolescence, again thought I had to grow up a little more. When I got my first job, I tried something and didn’t get the best of results! I think, that is the last time I ever tried until now.

For now, I sat and thought long enough and thought if I don’t do it now, when I would have such an opportunity? Looking at the time gap, last time I found some one interesting was around 4 years back. So I guess my eyes have a specific filter for such faces and it’s not something always available out there. With the backing of such farfetched thoughts, I tried making conversation couple of times over office communicator and ended up getting cold answers. Cannot blame CL as how comfortable any one would be talking to a total stranger over messenger! What I am talking about is not a yahoo messenger or a chat box but office communicator! ( yak what a pervert!!! ;))

Do you know how tough it is to get a lady to talk to you when you really want to her to talk! If the girl already got signals of the possible crush factor, the girl is going to make sure that every window /door and any open communication media are closed out for any kind of inroads (unless she is really interested). I think after the futile chat attempts, the earlier half smile / eye contact (which might be another farfetched thought of mine) was denied. One thing people don’t understand is being friendly to someone doesn’t hurt anyone but as a matter of fact,’ something in demand is always short of supply!’ With my friends who are really good at getting crushes, I always ask them what happens if you just smile and walk past to those who are really behind you and these folks have never given me a good answer on why they keep the straight face.

One thing strange is I always find a little crush feeling only with the best ( at least something which falls best for my eyes ) and I never come in the radar for any of those ….matter of fact I wonder if anyone had a crush feeling anytime towards such a freak (ME)….I don’t think so :D. So I am still thinking about whether to wink at this CL or let her have fun with her life and avoid the elevator she is already in :) you know, next time she might slap me with the laptop she has in her hand!