Friday, January 22, 2010

Something to smile about




How do you celebrate every day in your life ? Do you celebrate sometimes ? I am talking about enjoying the smallest and sweetest things in the world which is not actually the biggest but which gives one of the best feeling. Because I do get up some days feeling so dejected and lonley and starts thinking ‘ What am I doing here ? ‘
Why exactlly I am here and what I am supposed to do about something, matter of fact about everything. I do have quiet a good job, a little bundle of good friends and family and a lot of other things to wine about. But what actually contributes to my life ? Is it my salary ? Is it the kind of work I do or is it the way I feel every day. Happiness is bound to be what you make out of everything you feel
Following are some of things I enjoy these days a lot. Its not much but these are kind of luxuries I (WE) have in our life which most of us ( I did) take for granted. Now atlest when I am in my good sense, I do really take the time to appreciate it and enjoy it. I had good hard reasons to enjoy it. Some tims mind is too busy to see the details and focus on the big picture. I am going to list down some of them and looking forward to keep that things that way …… Its kind of akward, but it works for ME !
1. When you wake up hald slept in early morning on a weekday and realise that its just 4:30 in the morning and you have another hour to sleep. It is a luxury to have a cosy bed and time to sleep at your will. Not many have it this early in their career because many of them have an angry boss’s face when they close there eyes to catch that ‘ 5 minutes of escasty sleep’
2. A little time in the morning to make a good nescafe coffee for your self and sip it through the rush hour morning wondering what I am going to do today about the hedious production defects I am going to sit through today. Most of the time, the activites of the day steals the coffee effect but there are days where I can sit blank and just sip the coffe and appreciate its taste and aroma. Just a coffee but it is really good when you enjoy it.
3. The morning songs I listen to! Now this is a bigger luxury to have your own choice of music to be played that early in the morning where a nice search would get you any song available in intert in youtube. It is strage that I some how love the song ‘Dil khoom khoon kare’ but my roomie gets sad lsitening this song and requested not to play it. You now know what I meant by luxury
4. A good bath! You might be wondering if ever a bath ia luxury. Belive me, I am now living in a new england winter where the temperature seldom falls above 5 degree celsius. I just get mesmerised standing on a hot shower and let the face skin feel each droplets of hot water. It starts with a sharp knill but it leavs a feeling og hot nails which I love afterwards.
5. To have at least a crush or a face to think about when you actually dress up for the day. Mostly we end up non – noticed but this is something I enjoy. Just wondering about a moment where some one might catches you on a good costume and you get to know that ( seldome got this luck, but yes I do some times)
6. My favorite song being played in shuffle when I drive. Its again a luxury that my co travelers let the song complete as we seldom get people pf same tastes ad same mood at same time
7. A slot of 5 minutes for myself at some or the other time in a day. Now a days, life just rushes through from one tast to another! Its kind of too fast and there is never a moment to ourselvs, just to sit blank and enjoy the moment of glory ( even if its not a gladiator fight) we do win our wars at times
8. To have such a place where I can write such piece of crap and still people do come here, read up to here thinking what is this guy up to but still reads to the end :D ……. Ok this one was far fetched and I am stopping the luxury details here …….

Thursday, January 07, 2010

CRUSH




I guess it is a good thing to have a crush going on, in life at any given moment. This is what I read in one of the dailynews recently. Looking back, I could say I had my fair share of crushes from my childhood and most of them are one way crushes starting from Hemamalini( yes she is almost 30 years elder to me ) when I had that thought in my mind. If I recall it correctly, the next one was my music teacher in my 4rth standard (do people have cruses at ages like that or it’s just my evil perverted mind?) I don’t know, I still have a soft corner for the fairer side who are really good singers. It went on with couple of girls in my college life and that was it. Somehow the work life kept me so busy that I never found any face / person interesting enough to catch my attention (may be a pretty smile somewhere). I am not sure if it was more of a realization that crushes doesn’t help much unless you work on it. (In my case even you work on it!)


So it leads to the question what happens if I try to work on a crush to take it to next level? Most of the time I get crushes to the best person around and I end up joining a marathon run rather a short sprint with limited people where I have at least a chance to finish and ends up my heart being crushed! So the million dollar question is why I am talking about crush at this point of time. Yes you are right! I got that long forgotten feeling of having a crush over some one lately. A pretty face which I bumped into in my current workplace! I am not sure if having a crush in mind for someone is ok and if it is good to write about it here! I hope I will be able to keep this in my blog long enough J and no one comes walking to my desk to break my legs / hands


More about the crush lady, I have to come up with some name which cannot be traced back to this girl. So I will go with Crush Lady- CL. I have never tried to work on a crush to see if it would reach somewhere. This time, I sat back and thought, When I had such a thing going when I was in 4rth standard, my thought process went like I am just 4, let me grow up. The same thing came back on my adolescence, again thought I had to grow up a little more. When I got my first job, I tried something and didn’t get the best of results! I think, that is the last time I ever tried until now.


For now, I sat and thought long enough and thought if I don’t do it now, when I would have such an opportunity? Looking at the time gap, last time I found some one interesting was around 4 years back. So I guess my eyes have a specific filter for such faces and it’s not something always available out there. With the backing of such farfetched thoughts, I tried making conversation couple of times over office communicator and ended up getting cold answers. Cannot blame CL as how comfortable any one would be talking to a total stranger over messenger! What I am talking about is not a yahoo messenger or a chat box but office communicator! ( yak what a pervert!!! ;))


Do you know how tough it is to get a lady to talk to you when you really want to her to talk! If the girl already got signals of the possible crush factor, the girl is going to make sure that every window /door and any open communication media are closed out for any kind of inroads (unless she is really interested). I think after the futile chat attempts, the earlier half smile / eye contact (which might be another farfetched thought of mine) was denied. One thing people don’t understand is being friendly to someone doesn’t hurt anyone but as a matter of fact,’ something in demand is always short of supply!’ With my friends who are really good at getting crushes, I always ask them what happens if you just smile and walk past to those who are really behind you and these folks have never given me a good answer on why they keep the straight face.


One thing strange is I always find a little crush feeling only with the best ( at least something which falls best for my eyes ) and I never come in the radar for any of those ….matter of fact I wonder if anyone had a crush feeling anytime towards such a freak (ME)….I don’t think so :D. So I am still thinking about whether to wink at this CL or let her have fun with her life and avoid the elevator she is already in :) you know, next time she might slap me with the laptop she has in her hand!