Yes, I have a ton load of work to finish and an everlasting to-do list but somehow these are the times when the blogger in me pops up and says, it’s time to write up something. It was really busy two to three months with lot of travel, not much of work but lots of catch up. Two of my good friends got married (this time – guys not girls!) and they are still through the period of getting a new person in their life. It often happens that when friends get married, it mostly like throwing in a log into a standstill pond with a lot of friend-ships floating around. The pond and the log will be together and there will be a lot of ripples in the pond until it stabilize. We all know that this log is going to stay in the pond all lifelong and going to tumble some of the friend-’ships’ floating in the pond. The interesting part is the initial time ripples are too big as the log splashes into it washes up a lot of tiny ships around. Many a few who manages to be still and be around just floats! I know this analogy is farfetched and you (whoever is reading) didn’t get a clue of what I am talking about.
Anyways, current 'in-thing' is 'fitness' and somehow six packs suddenly sound nice to me. Yes currently I am a lean figure who looks like I will die of dehydration if I walk fast, but nothing is impossible. (This kind of crazy thoughts is what keeps people going)So I am slowly goanna start jogging to burn off my little 'tortoise on a pillar' like tummy I am having right now and will try at least to get a firm tummy, dreaming about a six – four- two packs :) . The biggest challenges I will face is the random beer fest and the sparkling wines which tempts me at Italian and Irish cuisines which goes so well will steak and freshly well done meat dishes in client meetings/ potlucks. I never used to eat much in such official meeting until recently where I grew confident enough to cut and fang the cooked food with forks and knife. Until recently I was afraid that the chicken piece I am struggling with will end up with my engagement managers' plate or if the noodle string will slip out from my mouth to the plate. Still not 'James bond of forks and knife' but got a good enough confidence to take out the tools and use it when I am really hungry ( still struggling with the chop sticks as it hurts for a days after trying to eat rice soup without slurping sounds)
So as my plans are holding, I tried to get in the path of jogging and abs exercise and now I am left with a wonderful pain over my belly and thighs which is preventing me from smiling as everyone has to be happy with a smirk! A good laugh is hurting as it moves stomach muscles and a stair will just pulls my things apart. One serious questions coming back to me is, does these six pack guys actually laugh at all? If they don’t it’s just because it hurts like hell after the work outs :)
After three days of gym and a lot of pain, I am having serious second thoughts about 6-4-2 packs :D

Wishing well

I had been going around this wish well too long I guess, once I tossed a coin and it vanished. Nothing happened from there. I went on with my life thinking that well has a bottom pit and it will hit the ground some time. I had sighted coins lying around but never got the courage to take one again and wish again. Did tried picking up one lately and for a moment I touched it! I felt like it was heated and my hand got burned. It was the slightest moment and never knew if it was burned or not. I dropped it on the floor without picking it up and tossing it over to the well again. Waited too long for the first wish itself, so thought again and again, Left in the back burner of my mind and tried to forget about it. But this damn coin stares at me every now and then popping up the same question, don’t you want to check it again!

So finally I am going to pick it up again, hold it for some time to see if it is hot or it was my illusion. If can hold it, I will toss it again and wish again whole heartedly. I know it is crazy for a grown up still to believe about wishing wells but I am still a kid inside …. So holding it to see it if it is fuming I’ll get to know that soon

Wish me luck !!!!!!

Crazy analogy but if someone figures it out, keep it to yourself :D

STUPID

Red: Seriously I mean how often do you look at a man’s shoes?
Dialogue from movie ‘Shawshank Redemption’

I never thought that this dialogue will be so truthful until I went through it! Yes it was my shoes on that strange day in the picture. There was nothing different about the day altogether other than I was stupid as I could be! I was walking form my desk to the lab which is like a 6 minutes walk rite across my office. I usually walk fast with big long steps and people have already told me that I walk like I am on a time frame to reach some place. Yes, they some time do have to run with me when I have something on my mind and I am just walking fast … On that day I felt a little different walking. One step was too comfortable and the other was little tight. I was wearing two different shoes, each from a pair I had. One of Boots from bata, about a year old and the other was wood land, about three years old. I looked at my shoes and smiled at myself which grew to a proper big laugh by the time I reached lab. Lab lady was looking at me which a ‘?’ on her face as I am not usually a smiley face.
The day went un eventful other than I forgot my laptop battery in the lab, took a permission from my manager to go home and change shoes but told her that I have a FEDEX package to collect as I was a little shy to say I am wearing shoes from two different pairs. Unfortunate for me that the day was ‘Columbus day’ UPS and FEDEX were closed!
Again through the evening I made a vegetable stew which came out really tasty but I forgot the half kg beans I washed and cut left on the table fresh-raw and I forgot to add salt in the stew!

What more to say, there are these days in our life where nothing just works for us, it just goes from wrong to worse and I was really feeling silly but I was so happy that after each I had my mind laughing at me again and again …stupid, no other word would come to my mind

Wonder ring.........

I am on the wrong side of 20’s! I am not sure why there is a wrong side and right side but any way I hope you got what I meant. The only news I get these days from my friends and colleagues are marriage invitations or engagement announcements. Believe me! Half the crowd in my batch (School, college or office) are settled with their better half and half of them still call me up and say ‘I’m lucky’! The other half says the girl I am going to marry is lucky. I am sure you figured out which half says what!!! But I am not sure which part would be true. It must be the phase of life where all the fuzz around is about getting married / engaged. The term ‘Getting engaged’ has altogether a different meaning in US! My colleague who has been living with his girl friend proposed her last month. I have seen and heard this thing ‘proposing a girl on knees – Will you marry me ?’ only in movies, never in real life. My colleague’s voice is just like the character Diago( The lion in the trio) in ICE Age, so I will address him Mr. D. Things went like this, Mr. D told our team that he is going to propose his girl friend on Friday and looking for some ideas. So my team [Team has three ladies, 50ish (my manager), 40ish (My DB admin) and 24ish under writer] was giving him ideas, where to do it, how to do it and lines! While watching an English movie I have seen all this but never thought that it is this serious and people do value the words, place and ‘ how you do it’!
As I never had the courage / opportunity to propose a girl, never thought about this long and hard! Given a chance, going over knees with a ring in the hand, in front of a big crowd, asking a girl a question which is going to decide the whole life of two individual is something daring to do! I guess there are things which look easy until you get to the spot. You sit on the co-passenger seat and driving looks so easy. It is just reading signs and turning the wheels. Once you get behind the wheels you realize that there are maniacs out there on the road who will drive you crazy or make you drive crazy! So the proposal which happened so close to me was like this.
Thursday Morning:
‘Mr. D turns up with rashes all over his wrist and hand and we were like ‘what happened?’ He had planned to have the proposal thing at his porch on Friday evening. The front porch shade lamps where long gone and he cleaned it up and fixed with a new bulb ( Who want to propose in half dim light and miss the initial reaction ( if you can call that initial after living for more than 5 years together!) Poor MR. D got an allergy with the dust from the shade lamp and he ended up with rashes on Thursday morning.
Friday Afternoon:
My Boss came around wishing Mr. D best of luck. B was showing off a nice ring to our entire team. A big discussion went on what flowers he should get and there where different theories going around.
To give plastic flowers or real flowers! Plastic flowers last forever and the girl can cherish the moment every time you look at them. But plastic is not natural so do you want give that! Finally it was settled on natural flowers because flowers are flowers only when they are fresh and blossomed. Then it was about the color, Blue for safety, white for peace, red for love and went on. Also they were thinking about Orchids or roses as Orchids last longer. Then it was lines. I had to run for a meeting and I missed that part of the discussion.
Ussssshhhhh. I never knew that this much planning has to go for a moment in the life (the biggest moment for the girl) So Mr. D was showered with advices (I hardly had any other than ‘Best of luck’) for the day and he went home early. Next Monday morning he was in all smiles. But he had MMSed his Fiancées’ palm with the wonderful ring on, on Friday evening itself, which mean he got a YES, ‘I’ll marry you answer!’. Afterwards when he talks about her, the word ‘Fiancée’ comes out of his mouth after a big hard struggle. We all know that the ‘girl friend’ when updated to’ fiancée’ and ‘wife’ changes the way things works. I am pretty happy that in my world, I don’t have to be on a spot, go to knees, hold the girls’ hand out and ask the question ‘Will you marry me’. I would love to do that to ‘someone’ once found but I bet I will have hell lot of butterflies up in my stomach if I am going to do that!
(I hope that things in my world don’t change :D)
After what I heard and saw here, proposing a girl is a very big thing!

Instant Sleep Syndormzzzzz……ISS

How much time one takes to fall asleep from a fresh mind? You might be surprised if I say that I take mostly 2 minutes to sleep anywhere, any position! If someone comes around and tells me that I have 10 minutes, I would be first checking if I can find a place where I can sit and doss off for five minutes. Yes you got it right, I am the one person who stands & sleeps in train, before the train even leaves the railway station, sleeps before the flight even leaves the runway and sleeps even before the KSRTC bus leaves my stop. Best part was during the monthly commute from Bangalore to Trivandrum in Volvo. The bus comes around Madiwala and leaves to Hosur. I have hardly seen anything after BTM bridge which is like 2 km from Madiwala, By that time I would be fast asleep watching some amazing dreams dancing with the current bollywood heroine or playing the last ball sixer for my cricket team (In dream you never know what u end up doing!)
The other day, my roomie and I was discussing something about a movie which we saw. He was so much into it that he went on describing the cast, the script etc etc. I reached my bed by the time he started about the Movie screen play. Next day he told me that he went on for another 20 minutes before my ‘hmms’ died out. But truly, I remember only the movie name, rest was just ’hmmms’ from sleep. I am surely happy to have this trait from my mom because I see lot of people struggling to sleep at times. They do so many things to get sleep and they wakes up right after 6 hours and wander around the house like orphan-ghost ( Anaada prethanghal) while folks like me sleep happily until one of the life’s primary needs like hunger / nature calls disturbs me! This trait is carried through my mom’s family. She had started watching Jurassic park three times, but by the time the helicopter reaches the park and the old man gets out of the helicopter (an amazing water fall scene), my mom would be sound asleep. The best part is when she falls asleep while talking to someone( I realized that even I can do that last week). It had happened so many times with me, I will be enthusiastically narrating the current day cricket match about my imaginary swinging Yorker or about the big sixer I hit, and I wait for her response ( a too good, or great ‘ Kollameda’), will leave me waiting for a while and I realize after a while.

I have seen people do these the following things to get some / good sleep

1. To take a bath at mid night so that they can sleep for couple of hours
2. They smoke so that they get sleep
3. They watch movies until their eyes swell up and sleep
4. They take sleeping tablets to sleep
5. They take shots (Taquela) / alcohol to get some sleep
6. They burn out their bumps in gym for 3 hours so that they get tired and sleep for couple of hours ….and folks like me fall asleep talking to people, listening to seminars and lately attending client meetings …I was lucky to keep my phone in mute for the last call otherwise someone would have caught me snoring on the call.
But if I am ever feeling sleepless, a glance to my office inbox or a sneak view of my current certification material will make my eyes heavier.
One of the biggest problems created by this ‘instant sleep syndrome’ is tears. I get a lot of tears the moment I feel sleepy. In my school days, this was a standard question I used to get.

Teacher : Why ‘R’ whts so senti about my class, why are you crying ?
Me : Nothing mam, something fell on my eyes (trying to give a fresh face)
Fellow classmate: No teacher, he get tears when he feels sleepy …
followed by cracking laughter sound in the class…..the drill of staning on the desk, wahing up my face or sit next to girls bench continues. ( Now even if I sleep in the call no one asks me to sit next to girls L )This ISS continued to my engineering classes also, where my teachers found me very sentimental about their subject and they instantly threw me out of their class. I don’t know how I got so sentimental in mathematics class as well! But invariably mathematics teacher found me crying In his class like ‘My titanic sunk!!!’
Guess what, the trait still follows me and now a day I get sentimental in client meetings and clients are often moved with my involvement in the escalation P1 and L1 meetings. May be they haven’t seen a man crying when there is an escalation in his project!

The KD story ......

If you are wondering what KD stands for, it is ‘Kaama Devan’ which roughly translates to ‘Eros’ in Greek philosophy. It all started when one of my friend ‘Youth’ took a 7 day wonder diet. He took this diet and lost 12 pounds in one week. So everyone (who got some extra pounds to lose) got inspired and took the challenge. For more details on the diet plan click here

I was wondering about the Americans ads about diet – healthy diet – happy diet etc. I never thought that people are so mad about diet and their looks until a small tummy which looks like tortoise on a pillar started to appear on me! But earlier this week I saw to what extend people care. Our so called crazy4, except ‘me’ started the GM-Diet plan. I am an underweight - mal nutritional guy who will die if I skip a lunch :D (Most of my friends do agree to this ;)). These three folks out of crazy 4 D, P and A), they just live to eat! So I thought this would be an eventful week. The first day was full of enthusiasm on dieting. There were animated discussion about the things they are going to eat, a list of things they would eat and how wonderful they are going to look after one week.
The first day we ended up visiting Stewlenords/ and bought vegetables for the wonder soup. Also picked up 6 packs of soup mix from Shop N Stop to make the soup! First day, they can have only fruits and vegetables. The after effects were visible! My friend P ran into the car with a bag of apples munching into it yelling out how tasty an apple can be! Then they prepared the wonder soup with little customizations, as they put only 4 onions in place of 6 and added three packs of soup mix instead on one. But believe me; the soup did taste really good for us. US – Me and ‘B’. We were not in the diet plan in the first place ( Intro for B - best Chappathy maker I have seen as he make very soft tender chappathy, which even I can eat 8 or 9 one go) So the wonder soup was more of an appetizer for us and the whole dinner for the KD’s. The dialogue of the day came from A!

‘A’ looking at the bag of potato chips. : Can we have an exception for two potato chips?
D : No, rules are rules
P : No way, you only told us that there will be moments of hunger which will test out patience, so no to anything fried.
A : Don’t listen to all the crap I said then, now the lays chips looks so crisp. I am ….
P: No, we are all together in this, don’t you stand for your word?
A : Nee onnum nannavillada ….@#$%^&* and drank a glass of water and went inside.

(Cursing that you guys will never improve on a lighter note looking at US who are eating away chappthy+ curry + curd with side –baked potato fry when the three are eating only fruits and vegetables for the whole day!)

Day 2.
The initial enthusiasm is missing, three of them A, D and P are just waiting for the breakfast. The diet doesn’t allow them to have tea. So they came to the cafeteria and had boiled potato with some pepper and salt. Second day is the toughest as it is a vegetable only day. By 3 O’ clock in the evening, I could see what a day’s fasting can do to ppl. Three of them where looking like tired plants on a desert. Their cheeks were already sagging. At dinner time, they had again started with cut vegetables (were eating just raw + boiled broccoli with pepper) and the wonder soup. Wonder soup which tasted good yesterday was not so tasty for them today. Even fruits where not included. Between this,
D: From today I re-define ‘Dried dates’ as fruits, so I am going to eat them and started munching into a pack of honey dipped dried dates
P:I cannot stand this torture, I am going sleep! Oh my god, just get us to 12 O clock, at least I can start eating some fruits and give rest to this boiled vegetables , cabbage and lattice

Day 3

They had baby carrots for breakfast and were just praying to get over the next day. It seems that by end of day 3, guys were already into a mode where they are getting used to ‘Starving’. Three of them were cursing about how bad the wonder soup taste and still having it as it was their only option other than vegetables. Three of them looked energy less and were roaming around like zombies.

Day 4

This was an anticipated day for P as he loves milk. He was planning all along about how to distribute the rationed 8 bananas to the entire day so that he won’t feel hungry. The three glasses of milk were a little compromised by taking big glasses. Folks were feeling a little relived as they got through the toughest day where they were eating cabbage and carrots for the whole day. I wonder, rabbit eats these two their whole life and still they are so energetic!

Day 5

By day 5, D had lost 8 to 9 pound, P lost 9 pounds and A lost 7 pounds. They were very happy about their wait. Day 5 is the feast day and rice looked so delicious to them. Again there was a debate whether it is one cup of uncooked rice a day or one cup of cooked rice. Finally they settled for one glass of cooked rice. The tomato part was again compromised with fruits

Day 6

Again a vegetable day and folks were tired of things. They wanted to lose 12 pounds and from 9 pounds, 3 pounds didn’t look that good. So they left the vegetable day to fruits and a little bit of bread. Also D and I had to travel out of state which disturbed the whole balance. D was again tested as we went into a ‘Karakudi Resturant’ famous for Tamil style ‘ Naatu kozhi curry’ (Country chicken curry) But he held his restrain by eating only rice and a little bit of curry without taking any meat. But he consumed a lot of fruits. ‘A’ was settling with a proper pulishery (Curd curry) and one glass of rice and hibernated rest of the day in his house. P rigorously followed the plan and had only vegetables and one cup of rice

Day 7

We all were sitting in a Mexican restaurant munching into cheese quesadillas and fried chicken wings. Three of them were convinced that the ‘Wonder Diet’ will work out with 10, 9 and 9 pounds reduced from their body. There was a visible change in each of them, but a little tiredness also. So after 7 days, the folks didn’t turn to a KD, but they did turn some faces around and made them ask
’What happened? You are looking different!’ !!!
Also at least three or four folks started following the diet plan looking at the KD’s change
Following a diet plan and getting out of it when you feel like, looks funny. But looking at our life style, the kind of food we eat, I am pretty sure that we end up following stricter diet rules by the time we will be 35 to keep us alive until 50. It is not always the food, but the life style which makes us so vulnerable. Less water, more of sugar, carbohydrate, and no or very less exercise, a lot of oil….I guess this is enough to reduce once life by 10 years! It is not so long before each of us will hear what to eat and what not to, from a dietician or a doctor! One thing I learned is following a diet is not fun! So if I can take control of what I eat now (How much), I can at least taste these delicious food items until I recognize taste!

Fried Chicken Masala!!!!!

Fried Chicken Masala
Utterly bored on a Saturday and I decided to try out a recipe of chicken, aimed to get this to blog as well. So did snapped up the ingredients and step by step process
You might have heard and tried this recipe many times. But I am just putting it down from top from my head as how I managed to cook it. I don’t take any responsibility if any one tries this and ends up with a bad stomach. I will look for some people to write some feed back as comments for this recipe if they are out of the rest room after trying this
Ingredients
Chicken breast – three large pieces
Egg -2 (for marinating)
Tomato – 4 (Medium)
Onion – 4 (Medium)
Green chilly -4
Garlic – 2 gloves
Ginger – 2 inches
Coriander leaves – for garnishing
Chicken masala – 4 and a half table spoon
Oil – 5 tea spoon

For the whole process, a medium to medium low flame is advised.
Fry four table spoon of chicken masala in a dry frying pan at medium flame for 3 minutes. After three minutes of frying you can judge it by the flavor of masala in the kitchen, also looking at a little darkened brown color. (I had the chicken breast from ‘Shop and stop’ and had to defreeze them under hot water for 7 minutes). Clean the chicken breast and cut them into cubes of size 1 X 1 inch. Mix two table spoons of chicken masala, the chicken pieces, a little bit of salt and the content of two eggs. Once properly mixed keep it intact for 40 to 45 minutes. In the mean time, cut onions (small square pieces), Green chili, garlic, ginger, tomato and coriander leaves. After 40 to 45 minutes marinating, microwave the chicken mix for 6 to 8 minutes. It is advisable to do it for 6 minutes and do it 1 minute at a time to judge the tenderness of chicken pieces as it differs from chicken to chicken
In a medium big hot pan, pour two to three tea spoon of oil and put onions. Add a tint of salt for quick seasoning. Once the onions are transparent, add ginger, garlic and green chili and fry it for two minutes. Add the rest of chicken masala to the mix and fry it for one minute with constant stirring. Add cut tomato now and keep stirring until the whole mix is homogenous with the masala. Add quarter cup of water and keep idle for 4 minutes with intermittent stirring to make sure that it’s not burned. Now on another bit copper bottom vessel, add two table spoons of oil, keep it in low to medium flame for 2 minutes, add the chicken mix from the microwave. The chicken pieces covered with masala mix will be partially cooked. Fry the chicken for 4 to 6 minutes, with constant stirring to make sure that no side is over burned. Now add the ‘masala paste prepared with the onions, tomato, ginger and garlic’ to the big vessel and strip to make a homogeneous paste. Once the a uniform mix is obtained, add coriander leaves and close the vessel for 2 minutes with low flame. Mix well before serving.
This curry would be great with soft chappathy, Kerala parota , Rotti, Nan and with White Appam ( Vella Appam)

Mood Swings

Hopefully the worst crap I have written up until now!
I thought I am a happy go lucky person. But lately I realized that I am having mood swings every now and then, on silly things. May be because I do not have much on the ‘To do list’ as cleared my certifications after 5 attempts spending around 500 $ on it! Also it looks like my client won’t throw me out until December and my parents are struggling to find a bride for me in this ‘Recession hit time American times’. So no urgent matters to be afraid off!
So when mind is empty, doesn’t have any particular goal, playing games/guitar or watching movie feels boring, there come the weirdest things to fill up one’s mind. It starts from ‘No one really bothers about me and it extends up to ‘why am I here and what am I doing’ kind of thoughts! I have read the proverb ‘An ideal mind is the devils workshop’ but at that time ‘devil’ meant only bad thoughts to me. But now I am finding different version of devils’ work including the thoughts in mind and some hard rules which are set while devil is writing the scripts for them in my mind. I am not sure how many of you, who are actually reading this will understand this crap. I am not sure, but this happens to most of the people at different stages of their life. Nothing can be empty as per natures rule and when my mind gets empty, it gets filled out with craps thoughts. Some of them are
1. Who am I? (No, this is not stolen from the famous Jackichan movie, but a wondering thought which comes around irking me now and then. This just circles around and tries to find out the source of this thought. The hardest and longest search for it found out that it originates some where from the back of my eyes, but still unable to pin point the exact location.
2. Where am I ? : Now when I look around, I am in a pool of total strangers whom I know for may be couple of years. All they know about me is what I have told them and what they have seen me in bits and pieces in last two years. For the people whom I really matter (not putting down any of my friends, but my family) I am just another phone call for some time now. All it takes is to check if the phone call had come at the stipulated time, if not they will be worried for sure but that’s it!
3. Who all will think about if I am gone! (Gone in the sense, not dead, but gone from the mod where I can communicate meaningfully. It can be a coma, mentally unstable / dead). Yes my parents will lose me, my siblings will and a first circle of relatives. Also my best friends who will be less than 10 in count. For the rest of the world, its just another person / another news in paper. Do we really worry about anyone else other than those who are really close to us? Even for the people who I mentioned, it would be a reality and they move on, as I moved on when I lost my best friend, my grandpa and many others. They just remain as a string of memory which will come along with some sparkling thoughts / situations where I miss them
4. Why everyone is busy when I am bored? I look at the long list of contacts in my phone and in Gtalk / skype and browse through each, thinking to call them / ping them. Then it comes to a state where, why should I bother people who are happy with their life and burned them with my ‘Empty life’. But most of the times when I call people or people call me, they would like and to talk, talk and talk and they seldom ask what’s happening with me. I am not sure its because the wrong expectation I have set or they just think about me only when they want to talk. ( I already told that this is crap and no need to take it in the literal meaning, but these thoughts does cross my mind now and then)
There are times when you just want to be all yourself. Not bothering to answer anyone, do nothing, but just feel floated staring away into nothing. At this very moment, everyone will try to contact you and you are left with two choice, to ignore all of them and be in your world or to answer them ignoring the mood swing. It is more like a constant tug of war in which either side wins at different circumstances and I guess that’s why we call it mood swings as it swings from one end to the other and it swings rite back when we are at the peak on any of the sides.

Vishu 2009 @ middle town

We were lucky to have a small gathering and enjoy ourselves with songs and great food....Thanks a ton to our camera man Bazil who has put together this lovely video.....

Bored on a saturday!

Bored

Yes you guessed it right. I am bored again as usual. It is raining out side and my roomies are out on different directions meeting up friends / shopping around in some mall. OK I tried watching different movies and all of them suck at this moment (I have to watch my language, I guess I am getting a little Americanised here :0) So what else I can do sitting at home other than making noise on my guitar / flute, have couple of beers, try talking to ppl who appear in my gtalk / yahoo who are busy with their life ignoring my pings. So I am typing things out here, yes it looks like crap :)

I had two things going inside my mind lately on a very serious note. One was anger and the other was competition. OK competition sounded nice to me when I was standing on the row at my school sports day for 200 m heats. I finished 4rth on a group of 7 :). But when the ‘competition’ creeps into your career it is not so nice! No I am not talking that I am scared of competition around my career. But looking ahead, looking at others who had lead the same life, does this competition end anywhere? We are just diving into the life head first to do our best without knowing whats in store for us!
Every day you cannot walk to your office thinking what is goanna make you work harder today other than compelling time lines and smart people around you. I know, I am not the smartest and there are lots of people smarter than me out there. But this is not a ring for boxing match,. Every one has to live! Ok, if you think this is about me, its not. I happened to be a lone worker without much of a competition around. I had my share of things a lot of time back and I guess life will throw out me on things I have to race for every now and then.
( ok I got away for two hours on the movie ‘Erin Brockovich’, got me glued into it , nice one for a bored Saturday and I love Julia Roberts, she is amazing).

OK I was talking about competition here.
Every one around me is competing for some thing or the other. Some are on the race to get a girl, some on getting a few friends and some on getting something else. This is going to stay until we live as there are fewer resources and too many hands. There is the miss world competition, the Idea star singer, the American idol. Every one wants to be the best. In each of them, people take the worst of human feeling of failure and disappointment and market it to the whole world. I guess people do enjoy that also! But there are a group of people which just born to be average in everything! What about them ? I am good at things I do once I got my mind on it. But I have been in the wrong side of a competition also. It doesn’t feel good to be on the other side always. When things are not happening for once it is ok. But if the competition grows to be a life threatening one, it is really a matter we need to look into and plan and accept! This is there in everywhere! Even Sachin Tendulkar has to play well to keep his place in Indian cricket team. He is still competing. He says he enjoys it, but I doubt if he can go on doing that for ever. Never being non guarded, always on guard, what kind of life it would be.

The moment one gets something good in their life, they have to start guarding it, because some one young and vibrant is definitely goanna come after that! I guess once we are born we have to just start running .As it is like you have to run faster than the fastest lion around if you are a deer and you have to run faster than the slowest deer around if you are the lion. One thing I get straight is one has to run fast and keep running in their life until the end! Ok I have get a new pair of shoes.

It is the first weekend of spring 2009 for us. All of us were tired of being inside our apartment for the whole of winter. Without much plans, Mr D got a ‘Check out the groom’ interview in Jersey City. So we thought of clubbing a driving experience and an interview together for the weekend. On last Tuesday night, on half sleep D rented a car and he left a message saying he got a deal for ‘Ford Mustang’. We were on a high on Saturday about the car and went to the rental office on Saturday. We were received by an elderly chinky aunty.
Chinky Aunty: Hi Gentle man, How can I help you? or you want to proceed to the kiosk machine ?
D: Hi, we are here to take the rental car
CA: Your last name please …
D: He said the 24 character long name and handed his driving license.
CA: Oh ….You r taking mustang out for this lovely weekend. Have fun! We have a convertible also available! It is going to be sunny this weekend. Do you want to upgrade?
Me: How much it will come to?
CA: Don’t worry; I will give you 10 bucks less. Are you in? (Flashing a chinky smile)
D looked at me with a pleasant smile and I returned the smile
CA: OK, do you want full coverage
Me & D: yes

CA finished the formalities and she asked another lady to pull out the car for us.
When we got our hands to the car, we knew we are going to have a good time. For the first time in my life time, I had to look into the manual on how to operate the car. We were looking for the light button, gear shift lever, the hood open/close procedure and the audio system controls. Man this is what we call GIZMOZ! With a good car in hand, the atmosphere changes drastically. Everyone is ready to go out even if it’s a little on the cold side. We went out to HammanoZet beach on a chilly evening just to take snaps (posing with the car). Everyone had their dream snaps on a convertible. You know what happens if there is a digital camera, guys with nothing else to do and a sports car. In the crowd of 6, poor Mr. R had some thoughts of sitting lazy on the ground resting on the car, but see how the snap came out. Blame it on our creativity.

The best part about the car was its stability, sudden acceleration and comfort. Speechless about the audio system and wonderful power! Now I know how a Ferrari owner would feels when a Ferrari just zoomed passé s us. I had my hands on the steering and give a thought of giving a tough time to the Ferrari but before I could put my thoughts to action, Ferrari had long gone out of sight. That much for racing on the roads! We had our fun ride in jersey city with hood open with two of us with shades looking like vampires ( karinja vampires, vampires are meant to be fair, we are on the dark side!) People do look when you travel in a convertible, even if it was a rented car, it got style and we did turn some good looking blond heads.
These are some things which can be done only in US or such foreign countries. I can only dream about driving a merc back in India. A convertible will be not even in my dreams. But US gives you such wonderful options to have things for a day on rent and feel it like you own it. Only regret I had was on Monday when I stepped inside my good old ‘Vasumati’ ( that’s the name I had for my car, again we have mary kutty, meenakshi and kalyani around, mind you these are names of heroines in different Mohan lal movies except Vasumati). and peddled it, it was taking more than 12 secs to reach 60 MPH where as the FM would have jumped to 85 MPH in 7 secs ! .

ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am writing this as I am taking the tag from 'Devil's thghts’ on writing 25 things about myself. But to tag 25 ppl would be tough, I don’t think 25 ppl read my blog :D. So I would leave it to the readers if they wish to take it on. Now 25 things is a too long list for anything and when it comes to talking about me, that too in my blog, I feel a little ‘I’ centric. Folks if you get bored reading the list, please curse ‘her’. I would try my best to ensure that I don’t start each sentence with ‘I’
1. I am very good at lies but now the skill is put to rest
2. Can talk and talk for hours to ppl about usually nothing if I get the right ppl to talk
3. Have a pretty big inferiority complex on my looks ( Seldom displays photos anywhere)
4. I can’t stand looking at myself over the mirror for more than one minute!
5. Named modest-kumar for various reasons which I wouldn’t disclose! ( C’mmon, I got a little common sense not to write out all the ways in which ppl pull my leg)
6. Somehow ppl likes to keep various nick names for me and very less call me by my original name
7. Most of the time, ppl identify me when I am talking to them over phone and I does the same, almost
8. I am a movie freak, let it be any language (Malayalam, English, Tamil, Hindi, Telugu and Japanese)
9. I can sleep for any duration at any time given an opportunity to sleep
10. I love cooking.
11. I am blessed in a peculiar way that I don’t put on much weight ( Still 6 kg under weight for my height) even after travelling around and munching into fast food / gulping down beers
12. Pretty easy to talk with if the other person can start the conversation!
13. I seldom say ‘I am busy’ even if I am busy. Usually I don’t answer if I am busy :D
14. I make noise out of flute, guitar, mouth organ and keyboard. I meant it about ‘noise’
15. I have attempted and failed to clear Japanese language test but know broken Japanese for asking ‘Food’, shelter and nearest railway station, same with Telugu and Kannada!
16. Malayalam is my mother tongue but if I write in Malayalam, it will definitely have more spelling mistakes than single letters ( My English spelling is no better, thanks a ton to spell check) The peculiar spelling mistake creeps in when I have all the letters in the word but in different order. So whenever I write up something on paper I will be ‘Singing’ a check, ‘desinging’ software and the list goes on.
17. I thought I had a good deal of patience until I met my niece / nephews on my last vacation
18. I love kids (kids under age of 1.5 years), they just cuddle around ur neck and keep smiling. They are best entertainment if given to you properly fed / packed until they feel hungry. Baby leaks are ok until they don’t poop. They don’t ask for treats after kissing you!!!
19. I love big families and love to live in a place with lot of ppl around. You always get a choice of fighting with someone and go talk to the next person. In a nuclear family all u get to fight is ur sister/brother!
20. Loves swimming and beaches are the best time pass for me
21. I don’t enjoy shopping much as I get tired making decisions. I can walk around a mall not buying anything but stuck inside a shop with smell of new cloths is a big ask!. As I mentioned earlier, doesn’t care much about looks, neither spends time choosing outfits.
22. I am a strong believer of ‘karma’ ( ur deeds will reflect ur gain / loss) and I try to make sure that I don’t hurt ppl badly
23. I hate to be alone anytime
24. I get bored with same set of places and faces and it truly fits in for my current job profile
25. I like to live with a low profile, just like another face in the crowd who came, lived and left this place without much fuzz. Given a chance for getting another life, I would choose to be myself anytime! ( At least until now, all my dream have come true baring may be one :))

If we were given a chance ......

Disclaimer: Any non mallu reader wouldn’t enjoy this post much. It has lot of words taken from day to day conversations and Malayalam movies.


Some how I agree to the statement that men never grow up but simple become aged boys J. We stick on to the same kind of ppl and do almost the same sort of things for fun. It is amazing that how we end up keeping nick names for people around us. Matter of fact these nick names makes us converse so easily about others even in their presence. Converse in the sense, most of the time it is for fun, just for our own group not hurting anyone’s’ emotions. I used to have this going everywhere I went, mostly the names where more confide to me and our group. This is the first time I am publishing some names we (tetrad) are using this in our group. It is no hard guess; it is just names given to girls as a side product of ‘Vayinottam’ (Bird watching). Not all of the girls are given names, but some are due to peculiar reasons. As I am really bored with lot of pending jobs, I felt like writing up some and here it goes J

Killi – This is given to one of the sweetest good looking girl around and it evolved from the name ‘Chella-killi’ from the movie ‘Rajamanikkam’ so who ever roams around with her would be ‘Vedan’ So the names are now a days associated as Vedan 1 to Vedan 10. Yes killi has a long fan list following her. (We, the tetrad are just observers,, we don’t get into hunting!)

Subramanyapuram –This is a recent hit Tamil film in which the heroine just checks if hero is looking at her all the time during a song. We have one girl in our office that does the same. It is written all over face as if ‘Is anyone looking at me?’, Am I beautiful ?

De silva :A girl who just looks like Aravind De silva’s daughter and yet the name De silva

Panji kettu: Meaning ‘Bundle of Cotton’. I haven’t seen any person plump than this girl. I guess it is her body constitution, I have seen her burning her calories for hours at gym but some time we have to be happy the way we look!

Lottu loduk & Gul gullu: The best dressed girls at our work place who are always seen together. Being from SriLanka, they have a unique skin texture and they got some nice curves and have an awesome smile every time they are spotted. As they are together all the time and one of them has a name close to Gulgulmal, we kept the pair with the name from ‘Balarama’. If you have happened to read ‘Mayavi’ from good old ‘Balarama’ then the mad scientist ‘Lottulodukku and gulgulmaal’ would be familiar to you

Captain: One who just dominates any place just by her hefty looks! She must be 5’10 weighing over 170 pounds with broad shoulders and a commanding pair of eyes. But she is an angel at her heart but still she didn’t escape our naming radar! Matter of fact she is a good friend of mine

Kullikka-cura: (The one who doesn’t take a bath) Somehow every time we spot this girl, we get a feeling that, it has been weeks before she had her last bath. May be it’s due to her tiny eyes and the peculiar hairstyle but yes, she got that look. Generally we say that If we happen to see her any time in the morning, it is bad day for us (Proverb says if you face a person who hasn’t taken bath, your day is gone. But from my experience half my client personnel never takes full shower in the morning until they get two hours to spare)

Cutticura : She is another half of kullikka-cura and a little short. So we see them in pairs and hence the name Cutti-cura

Kuthira: (Horse) she just shakes the whole floor while she passes by with her high healed boot and ‘Bajaj–chetak’ like walk. We prey each time she passes by us that she doesn’t break the floor.

A’s Girl friend (Self explanatory) : Unfortunately this girl sits next to my pal ‘A’ and we named her ‘A’s gal friend. ‘A’ hasn’t even talked to her in one year time but still we tease him with the same

QA lab: Just because she works in the QA lab, she was named QA lab. This is used just to mention when she is around. She was earlier voted to be mayor of our company as she smiles at every one and say hello to everyone around.

Shalina sundary (Homely good looking girl) : This is one peculiar girl who behaves like a proper Kerala girl from a remote village even if she is in USA. Everything about her reflects simplicity and hence name SS. It is pretty tough to be simple in this complex world!

Vella Bandar (Partially Malayalam and partially hind – translates to white monkey) Nothing particular about her towards monkey but got this name as we were leaving the cinema hall after the movie ‘Delhi-6’. I guess by being an ardent fan of Abhishek and was screaming about kaala-bunder, she got the name.

Kalliyankattu Neeli : Kalliyankkattu Neeli is a famous mythical character from Kerala which is supposed to be a ‘Yakshi’ who lures and kills young men. Here the name actually came from the amount of lipstick used by this girl which looks more like she just finished drinking blood from someone. Different people and different dressing style, so we cannot blame her but at least we make fun of it in our group. Doesn girls think that my putting a lopt of lipstick means anything to guys ? Still wondering about this!

Motta kutti : The lady with boys cut named as ‘Motta’ and added kutty later on

Akashdooth: Name taken from the old tragic Malayalam movie. This is one girl who is always on the phone with a very sad face moving around at a snails pace. Looks like she is recently married and her better half is somewhere else which makes her face so sad. If by any chance you have seen the movie ‘Akashadooth’ you will understand why the girl is named so!

Challu (Translates to poor joke) : Nothing to do with her humors sense but her name has already a ‘Challu’ part in it and henceforth she is named as challu

5 Minutes: This purely depends on the mind processing speed of a girl who laughs about a joke after 5 minutes. It had happened for more than one occasion that she laughs in the car for a joke she saw in the movie! So even if we ask her some question, we would wait for 5 minutes to get the answer. This name is an accepted even by the girl!

15 Minutes: This is 5 minute’s friend who takes more time for realizing what is happening

Round Floor: This is just broken English translation of one family name

I feel like writing up some guys-nick name also but the censorship of this blog doesn’t allow un-parliamentary words to be published. So even if try to write, it would be more of ***** or #####. So I will leave it here and start running my jobs again!

Coffee @ 1024

It is kind of strange that the food and scent always pulls in old memories. All of my lower primary school days where linked with a touch of Cuticura powder scent as my mom used to put a lot of talcum powder on me, it is the same thing with my vacations, The Chandrika soap always gave me thoughts about long forgotten wonderful baths at ‘Panavalli, Cherthala’ on open ponds where the soil is white in color… The latest thoughts where more related to food rather than soaps and talcum powder.

It was just another interesting weekend where I found various levels of thought process after watching the movie ‘Nan kadavul’, which roughly translates to ‘I am God’ where the hero kills the heroine at the last scene with a verse,

“Death is a gift to some one who cannot sustain their life and a curse to a bad soul”.

The second score was Delhi – 6 which turned out to be great entertainer for me. From the crowd of six guys, only two liked this movie and others where all sleeping by the time movie ended, if otherwise, Sonam kapoor was the only reason which kept them awake. Every one was leaving the cinema hall saying ‘No story line, what a waste of time’. But me and my friend were grinning ear to ear thinking about how good the movie was!
For Delhi 6, the movie trip itself was interesting. The pretty girl in the cinema hall two rows down the line sitting next to (probably) her sister and her sister’s husband was a serious distraction to the movie until the movie really synced in. But as the movie set in with the streets of Delhi blossoming, the fair lady was long forgotten and the music just flourished.

OK now back to the weekend. After a movie each on Friday and Saturday, it was time for a feast on Sunday. So Mr ‘A’ ( the one who liked the movie) decided to make his special ‘Beef’ curry at his home. The beef curry and a side line of entertainment (it was in A’s place) where all the other four guys including me where running different kind of queries into Kerala matrimony website to get series of search results. Yes, this is one of the favorite time pass for many these days. To look for a bride, where we get to see the best pictures and unless and until we commit the mistake of contacting some one, it is good to know what people are looking for. We were little scared to see so many profiles’ of girl’s which said ‘ Software professionals please excuse’, that much for the recession !

Yes, I had started with food and memories and ended up on recession, lost in the trail again! So the beef curry was too good, hats off to MR A for the awesome beef curry despite being from a Variyar family (A caste by which he is supposed to be a temple guy ‘Ambalavaasi’, who is forbidden from eating eggs, chicken on any meat for matter of fact) The rest of the evening was on Oscar and another Tamil movie ‘Arinthum ariyamalum’ The food and memory part kicked in just there. As the Oscar fever was spreading its fumes with A R Rahman and Pookutti on centre stage, Mr B was busy making chappathy and I was busy switching my eyes from Oscar and the movie on laptop.

There, the thought of beef roast + chappathy came into my mind and pulled in some old memories. At my house, chappathy for supper was always accompanied with light black coffee. It was so nice of MR A to offer me coffee. A piece of chappathy with curry followed by a small gulp of coffee ..aaahhh, I closed my eyes. I could feel myself sitting over the gas cylinder (My usual place at my mom’s kitchen is over the spare gas cylinder for eating the hot chappathy straight from hot plates) Thanks a ton to Mr A and B. The fun part was ‘making of black coffee’. As A offered me coffee, he did a small calculation and put only one cup of water for coffee and started searching for coffee powder.
He found 6 empty jars of coffee bottles, but he could hardly find enough coffee powder from all of the six jars to make my coffee. Then A started asking rhetoric questions in kitchen like
‘Who drinks so much coffee here?
Why are these empty bottles still here?
Who is collecting all these empty bottles?
Are you folks planning to start a road side shop ? ( Murukan kada – where you could find lot of candies in bottles in the front row)
It was fun watching him pulling his hair out on the empty Jars of coffee bottles. To add fuel to the fire, I took this snap and said I will be blogging this tommorow….

But the food really pulled in some memories …the scent and flavor always push us back to some old memories attached with it. It is strange how we remember things which are getting faded in our mind just comes back fresh and crisp with sensations like taste and smell.